What to do, what to do…

This is undoubtedly destined to be the nerdiest post to appear on this blog. I’m not entirely sure I will even post it when its finished, except that I seriously doubt I’m the only one thinking these thoughts at this point in time.

The premise for all this is that I’m a Warcraft player. Not really just a player, I’m what you would call an addict. Probably an addict among addicts. I have 10 max level characters, one of each class. I say this not to brag, but as the set up for the real issue at hand…I’m bored.

It’s not that I’m running out of things to do, there is plenty to do. It’s not that I’m unhappy with the game, actually I think Blizzard has done a pretty good job in many ways of catering to the vast majority of players. It’s not that I’m super elite and there isn’t any challenges to the game. Truth is, I’m a TERRIBLE video game player. The whole ‘gamer’ thing fascinates me. I’ve spent a ton of time on it over the years. But, realistically, I’m a grinder. I’m generally willing to slam my head against it for longer than anyone else rather than be the guy who skillfully strolls through content.

This is part of my problem. I’m not clueless enough to ignore that the answer to ‘I’m bored’ is ‘Do something else!’ The blockage is my personality is pretty addictive, to a point. I’m sure there is a term for it. I get hooked on things and focus on them with, lets say, orangey hot intensity for a period of time. I’ve followed this pattern in many areas of life for as much of my life as I can remember. I’ve floated from books to music, politics to sports, movies to games. Even in friendships, I tend to focus on small groups for a time. But then something changes.

I still enjoy the game of Warcraft. I still log in and do my thing. They are even set to add more things for me to do. Possibly tomorrow. I really enjoy the people I play with. It took  some doing to minimize the drama in a group. Many guilds never do. For what we are and how we play, I’m pretty proud of what we have accomplished.

I am still, I guess, in a ‘gaming cycle.’ I read some, but it hasn’t kept me up late lately. I listen to music constantly, but as background to something else. None of the usual suspects have leapt up and taken over my focus. I don’t drink. Don’t smoke. Don’t gamble. Don’t play poker or bowl or any of that kind of thing.

I’ve tried to force feed things that would be good addictions. I’ve always been jealous of people who develop good addictions. Working out. Cleaning house. Writing(Like I said, I’M TRYING!). I don’t seem to get the good addictions. I need to focus on some of these things, and I plan to. but that’s not really the question here.

Lots of gamers just switch games. And that is all well and good. I’m all for it. The problem for me is the time involved. I just don’t know that I want to transfer the WOW time to another game. Learn the game, level the character, find the guild. All that good stuff.

I started playing WoW with some friends, who promptly went on to other things. I stuck around because WoW has by far the largest and most vibrant ‘community’ surrounding it of any game anywhere. Blogs, podcasts, guilds and any number of smaller informal groups surround the game. I joined it as a social exercise. And, as a social exercise, I have mismanaged it on a grand scale. While grinding away on characters in-game, I have done NOTHING outside of the game to service the reason I started to play in the first place. I don’t see a whole lot of evidence I would handle any other game or ‘community’ any differently.

So, there is the dilemma. I feel like I’ve played myself out in the world I chose. But, I have no idea where to go with the time and interest I have invested in it.

What to do, what to do…


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